so my girl and i broke up about two weeks ago...we were to together for about 2 1/2 - 3 years......i just need to hear some back up that based on this conversation i am not out of my mind and am correct when thinking i should not only just go my seperate way like i already am...but do it with a lot more hate
(9:39:04 PM): yeah
xRadioxRaheemx (9:39:56 PM): so why are you acting all surprised
(9:40:18 PM): im not, im just tired of everything
xRadioxRaheemx (9:40:43 PM): and dont give me this i am killing you shit....im not doing anything to hurt you
(9:41:00 PM): i can't get you out of my fucking head
xRadioxRaheemx (9:41:21 PM): probably real easy cuddled up to another man
(9:42:45 PM): its not easy dan
(9:43:16 PM): im not sure what i want, i know that i want to be with you, but at the same time, im not sure
(9:43:16 PM): and im trying to see what is holding me back
xRadioxRaheemx (9:43:54 PM): if you loved me like you say you do then you wouldnt be able to stomach laying beside someone else for the night
(9:44:11 PM): i have a hard time doing it, but there are feelings there with nick
(9:44:29 PM): im thinking about you, and im thinking about how wrong i feel doing it still
(9:44:44 PM): i do get sick, i've been sick over this
xRadioxRaheemx (9:45:09 PM): can you not see how ridiculous that sounds
(9:45:48 PM): i know how ridiculous that sounds
(9:45:51 PM): i feel ridiculous
(9:46:03 PM): i hate that im feeling this way, i hate the situation i am in
xRadioxRaheemx (9:46:04 PM): then you can probably understand how i cant take it seriously
(9:46:54 PM): i do understand
(9:46:57 PM): but you don't understand me
xRadioxRaheemx (9:47:36 PM): apparently.....i have never totally fucked over someone i loved
(9:47:50 PM): am i fucking you over?
xRadioxRaheemx (9:47:55 PM): yeah
(9:48:05 PM): or am i giving you the time to feel yourself out to see what you might want other than me
xRadioxRaheemx (9:48:14 PM): thanks you are so generous
(9:48:15 PM): i wasn't 100% happy
(9:48:26 PM): why should i hold myself back and let things continue
(9:48:31 PM): i felt like i was doing the right thing
(9:48:50 PM): why should i settle with comfort and what i know, just to settle
xRadioxRaheemx (9:48:50 PM): you also thought you were doing the right thing when you were lying to me
(9:49:04 PM): you're so bitter and harsh
xRadioxRaheemx (9:50:27 PM): of course i am bitter....you lied to me throughout the end of our relationship...we were together for 2 1/2 years and not even a week later...well probably not even a day later you have a dude in your bed that lied to my face when i told him not to be a coward and admit it if he had feelings for you
(9:50:47 PM): he didn't then, i suppose
(9:51:08 PM): no dan, it was not a day later
xRadioxRaheemx (9:51:22 PM): a week is no better
(9:51:47 PM): i know
xRadioxRaheemx (9:51:55 PM): then why try to justify
(9:52:05 PM): because i don't want to loose you
(9:52:16 PM): i don't want us to be hurting anymore
(9:52:25 PM): i want us to be happy and i want us to work
xRadioxRaheemx (9:52:51 PM): i always did
xRadioxRaheemx (9:53:31 PM): i told you as long as he is around that i wont be